A colleague told me that I need to stop trying to be the superwoman I once was. Then I cried.
I have been back from maternity leave for one week and things have been going quite well. My kid loves his daycare provider as do I, my students are happy to have me back, as am I, and things are running relatively smooth at home with the new schedule. So what's the problem?
I feel like a half-sie. Or maybe a part-sie.
I don't feel like I am giving a full whole to being a teacher, to being a mom, or to being a wife. Instead I feel like I am giving only part of what I could or should. Yes, I know, I KNOW that this is normal, this will change, and I shouldn't be so hard on myself. But I can't help how I feel. It is what it is.
I know this is normally an outlet for me to rant, express frustration, or sometimes even joy, but I am consumed with trying to figure out this new life and there has been little room for the old pleasures. Hopefully I'll find my chi soon.